Every now and then I think back to some point in my life, usually high school, and I sort of wish I could relive that part of my life. Except then, when I actually think about it, I can't help but wonder why I feel that way, because knowing what I know now that part of my life seems unfulfilling.
I used to be in an anime club when I was in high school, and every now and then I'll find something online that reminds me of those days and I get a little wistful, but I don't actually want to go back to those days. I didn't have much drive back in high school, I wasn't particularly close to anybody I went to school with, I did pretty well in class - but I do well in class these days too. So I'm not sure why I feel the way I do.
I wonder what it would be like to be one of those people who feels that the best parts of their life have passed them by, that it's all downhill from here. I think that's really scary.
I mean, I'm pretty young yet, and I'm sure when I get old and my body fails on me that I'll start pining at least a little bit for the "good old days," but I think there's a lot to look forward to in adult life as well. Having a job I love, being able to drive, having more freedom than before, getting married... I'm really hoping to get married someday. It's funny - adult life's so much more complex than being a kid, but I think I'll be happier as an adult than a child. I'm excited for that complexity - not sure why.
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